Wake me up when September ends!!!!

Owh......,,, it's finally the second week of September month!! It's been like FOREVER since I last blogged! Well, there are sooo much things i wanna share here.. But where should I start? hmmm...let's start everything chronologically by months, alright...

January 
Well, time ticked around the upcoming wedding events of my eldest brother. So, without wasting too much time cuz you know, there'll be so many preparations to get done with; printing and delivering wed card, buying some gifts, hotel reservations and all, we of course gotta choose and buy those dresses and heels and making some hair-do!~ just to be as pretty as nite event! LOL

Hello 2011 ! ! !

Hah! It's been a while since I last blogged. And what best is a new year of rabbit is finally approached. Well, there are so many stories I wanna blog here but, I bet that would somehow cover this blog page more than it's capacity to hold just enough. Lol!

A new year of 2011 is in fact a good year to start in everyone's life. A new year, a new resolution. Good things are hope to return more abundantly, and the bad things are best to left behind as footprints. Today, is my second week of lecture for my fourth semester and to describe about the learning is so far so good. In this coming May, I'm going to brush up on my skills on what I'll be specialized for for my internship in Kuching Specialist Hospital (KPJ). Thank God I've finally been chosen for this agency and again what best is I'll be the only one to be send off to from UNIMAS! =)

I've been so happy lately that finally, everything that my family had wished for has come true~my eldest brother is going to get married soon and I'll be the bridesmaid for the first time ever! =) In fact, this is the best feeling that ones is going to talk about especially among the girls talk and they would definitely tell the whole world as if they were actually going to marry! Cartoon me =$.....But that's okay, at least I can perk myself up for this 'little thing' and I hereby with gladness, would like to congratulate both of you; Meling and Yee Wan, on their blissful wedding.

I have a reason to be happy as well cuz my best buddy is back to me now. B is so good to even let me have his new mobile number after he lost his mobile phone earlier on. Awwww, poor B. The best thing about this is B didn't give it to any of our former tutorial mates but to me. Isn't it something ordinary or perhaps, special?? hmm.. Sadly, I haven't got the clue yet. Anyway, B and I started an afresh and it was inadvertently the best thing I've had. I wouldn't want to lose any friendship with B cuz I know our so called magical bond is unbreakable. ( I've actually come up with my new written poetry on 'unbreakable' that is shown below) However, we are going to be apart though whatever remain is always in our hearts; B on the other hand is going for internship in coming May in Sibu Hospital for a year. Anyway, wishing you best of luck, BESTIE! =)

                                                                      Unbreakable

I can see the pain living in you eyes
And I know how hard you tried
You deserved to have so much more
I can feel your heart and i sympathized
And I never criticized
Though you were meant in my life

Once upon a time
You loved me for who I am
Then fear crept in my mind
Cuz it was something hard to believe for the first time
When you looked at me
I leave the Winter on the ground
And all I gave you was goodbye


So here we are
Starting in the Summer fall
Late at night when the world is sleeping
I'd play back myself leaving
And I wish upon the stars that 
Somewhere you are thinking of me too


It came upon that night and it's Autumn fall
When you willing to lend a hand
The feeling was so right
When you still eager that you were 'mine'
I'd go back to Winter fall all the time

Maybe it's my intuition
Something you just never questioned 
When I realized I love you in the fall
But now you said 'You were everything I ever wanted but you left me brokenhearted...'
I seek forgiveness
And hope the time could turn counterclockwise
And make you mine
So.... unbreakable 

Stress!

I'm sorry, blog. I supposed I should post this blog out last night but I just to tired so I finally post it out today! I didn't see R.L aka Rabbit on Tuesday =( Anyway, these two weeks will be my fucking busy weeks. And what I've gotten into? I hate to say that lecturers are giving us an endless work in the last minute before final approach.

STRESS!

Yesterday went to Microbiology lab to get the result for the previous experiment conducted on Monday. It was fun to handle or even 'play' with the coliform bacteria =). After done with this, I went to CAIS to return back my long due date books I've borrowed. And thank goodness, my RM16 is gone as my fine for 2 books in 40 days cuz I didn't come up for that due date ever since RAYA hols ended. Then, I accompanied my friends to see Dr. Cirilo and negotiated him regarding the Biochemistry assignment group. There were couple of groups who aren't satisfy and I don't understand why on earth would these RACIST minded people would complain regarding the grouped members chosen earlier by the lecturer? It's a total shame when this happen and even worse Dr. Cirilo who's from Mexico blurted out his view about Unimas students that aren't multi-racial as he thought~malay with the malay, chinese with their own community, and same goes for the Indians and others. Oh, common people, get the fuck out of this retarded mind of RACISM in yourself! Finally, we ended up with Dr. asking us to find and make our own group.

After that, I went to see Dr. Leslie to discuss on our experiment result since we couldn't find the lecturer who's supposed to be in charged. According to her, practically, the result is logic but somehow it's based on what we're doing and some result might be fault owing to the errors occur during handling it. So, everything is settled with our discussion =).

It was raining heavily with thunders, so my friend and I took away our foods from cafe and we went to her house before going to Mandarin class together. We talk basically about our life and it was fun to talk to her since before this we were't that close enough to even talk about anything lol =) Surprisingly, she commented about I'm being choosy or 'selling high' especially to the guys out there LOL. Well, maybe you're right my friend. In fact, when love comes to me, I'd fear, and the other way round happens the same~so no surprised I'm SINGLE  :)

That night, I was so annoyed by somebody whom, my friend and I supposed to join in her group for the Biochemistry assignment thingy. But it turned out that she had find another group members without knowing that we told her to be her members in about two months ago. Actually, I don't care if she asks me to join other group but, logically, do you simply forget who you are grouping with and who reserved to join you in the first place?? Obviously, you rejected us! You neglected and forgotten about me as well! I'm not mad but I'm just sad that this happened in the last minute. And more surprisingly and that makes my heartache is when you pull us out by simply saying and asked to join the seniors. But nevermind, THAT'S ALRIGHT, BECAUSE I LOVE THE WAY IT HURTS AND I LOVE THE WAY YOU LIE.

Spilt out some words

Lately, I feel moody well, inside me. of course no one knows cuz I believe everyone has their own secrets deep down inside. I might have told to some people my personal stuffs but well, that's only one tenth of it. I couldn't even put them into words. Well, I maybe seen as a happy-go-lucky girl as in my attitude sometimes, so people would think i'm optimist? ah, well, I wish.. ;) First and foremost I'd thank my 'lao po' for helping me to get through all my difficulties in relationship life. I <3 you to bits, lao po!

I know B for almost three years now ever since our first meet in 2008 in KML as B was my tutorial mate that time and we were inseparable indeed till our other tutorial mates tried to hitched us both and hence, B is the best buddy I've had. Sadly, B was into me but B's intention for winning me was to no avail and it was in vain to say. But nonetheless, we are good friend still, until everything changed last month. We lost our friendship bond that kept us together. It was a nice thing to offer to a friend when in needs, so B helped me to get rid of this someone. Since then, we went for a fake 'relationship' and it worked after all. Thanks to B! But somehow, after nearly a month, I feel surprised that B suddenly say hurtful things and criticize me without knowing that I never say or did anything bad thing to B. However, I don't really give a damn on what B has said to me cuz everything B has said was UNTRUE and I know B did this for a reason~depressed or hatred or jealousy or just wanna find fault I guess. Well, MEDIC student B is! It was totally a heartbreaking scene to the core that time. I always thought for B is my great friend after what we've been through but I AM always wrong. B is no longer the person that I trust and be a great friend that I'd share my worries to anymore.

So as I say, you can never judge a person by what you've heard or seen. Some people can tolerate with this criticism and just forgive and forget for few times. Do bear in mind, everyone has their own limits. We do good to people and have no bad intention and even treated them sincerely and that is what they react by saying something bad to us? Well, I don't mind. Maybe these people are just too childish to even realize that they have hurt other people. Well, I'd say we just forgive and forget like Jesus forgave those guards who tortured and crucified Him. I'll just let God to judge =)

Just be kind to others. In fact, life is way too short so don't dwell on the frivolous things in life, LIVE~LOVE~LAUGH

Happy mode =)

I am in an amazingly happy mode today. Simply because, Victoria and I had our KFC together and it was a surprise that I still own some money left to spend for this whilst that I'm totally in the vague of broke! While she, on the other hand, was happily enjoying her long time craved-food.. Awwww,.....poor Victoria. Nevermind, I'll bring up more food from my home for you next time, especially your 'ayam pansuh'. LOL.

Finally, I've made it through and it ends today. No more worries for my bloody Mandarin oral test. yeah2! =)

Long Lost

I know I've been lost in the bloggosphere for quite some times and as you can see, this is my new bloggy. So here I am gropping for words to spilt out some. To start with, it's been awhile... 'cuz i don't know what should i blog about. I have many personal stuffs and personal views that I have in mind and I've been thinking of posting them in my blog. but when i clicked onto new post, i realized i couldn't put them into words.. it's like, I don't know how and when to start from. geezz..... why is it so hard??

well, never mind.. maybe I'll find some other time to blog bout those..like in a million years? juuuust kidd........ kinda! :p

okay so i'm writing this post at 12.29 AM. Yesterday was Monday and I hate Mondays. Fortunately, we just had our last midsem Adv. Biochemistry test and unfortunately, I'd comment that it was totally a piece of DISASTER~?? I'm totally exhausted now; effect from my endless class from 9AM till 9PM without any rest... =( once got back, chunked my bag on the floor and done self-chores and I started with piled of work after work. sooo busy! and time just ticking so fast and final exam is just around the corner....dang!

Well, I just hope for the best and do what I can do. I just need strength from God and you my dearie! Nevertheless, thank God, today I'm going to end my bloody Mandarin oral test assessment! Wish me luck ;p !!